Live all you can: It’s a mistake not to.
I keep reading or hearing this same sort of self-affirming words. I really would like to believe in them, to take them to heart and know it is so. But everyday is a struggle to even just want to get up, function, and cope. The sadness is pulling me apart from my connections, and my disconnections is worsening my sadness. Such a cycle. Today, I knew I was just barely skimming the surface of 'Okay', then I received a handwritten letter that is full of concern for me, then I am breaking down again. I wonder at that. Why breakdown from a well-meaning letter, call, SMS-message?