Rain at last. Lots of it. I am hiding inside with blanket and hot water bottle. My digestive system once again in spectacular turmoil. Last night I slept for 14 hours. More or less.
Generally, I feel I should use these times of immobility for deep thinking and reading and mental improvement and so on. But why? I mean there is no exam at the end of it and my chances and willingness of moving up the career ladder are zilch. Not that it matters. Not following a career path is obviously the consistent motto of my life. I like a bit of consistency from time to time.
No, what I need to do right now is watch online tv. In 2010, watching Brothers & Sisters carried me through some very nasty times despite my child's disgust and persistent attempts to get me interested in more meaningful programs (Flight of the Conchords
, Black Books
, Summer Heights High
). I stuck to it until that woman who had breast cancer back in thirtysomething lost her memory after a car crash. Thankfully, my health was getting better by then and I was able just in time to realise that I had been watching utter rubbish.
But then again, thirtysomething is one of the few memories I have of the last time we lived in Dublin, a year of full time work (with career options staring into my face), my child unhappy in a crappy school, my man hoarse and tired from teaching adolescent boys and my lovely mother in law dying of cancer. I know we all did try our best but that year is a blur.
In my memory, I am either driving through Blackrock on a rainy Sunday morning listening to Walking in Memphis
and crying after visiting my beautiful mother in law in hospital.
Oh, I loved that woman. Or I am switching between Irish and UK tv channels following two different series of thirtysomething episodes while making up a knitting pattern to copy the cardigan of that university professor guy, the blond one with the beard who gets killed in the end.
It was not a happy time but there you are. In the end, R spread out the job offers on the kitchen table and we threw the dice.