29 September 2013

The first visitors of what feels like a long string all the way up to Xmas have arrived. Joking, eating, drinking, long discussions into the night and with it a terrible tiredness, upset stomach, sore throat. I push away any feelings of loss as I drop them off at the museums, the galleries, the outdoor music events, watch their energy and their eagerness, something I used to have so abundantly. Back home I wrap myself in blankets and drink more fennel tea before I start making elaborate dinners and gear myself up for another night of laughter and talking.

I turn on the radio and I hear 
Oh life, is bigger
It's bigger than you
And you are not me
and I start to cry for a short comforting moment. Autumn is here.


3 comments:

  1. I have always said that that video is the entire reason the music video was invented.
    It has comforted me so many times.

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  2. Prost to autumn! Prost to R.E.M.! Prost to you!

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