Impatiently, far too impatiently waiting for this whatshallwecallit to be over, an infection, surely, just a virus, no doubt. Ever heard of sinusitis, that must be it. Collecting my wits in between bouts of vertigo and with a booming head under a towel, inhaling tea made from fresh sage and thyme. Pretending that I've never heard of the ENT symptoms of my disease. There, I said, my disease. As if I owned it. But at this stage, it doesn't really matter. Believe me, it's not a thing about ownership or - worse - owning up to anything. And just to clarify, I am not battling or fighting here. I have rejected this terminology in connection with illness long before I got involved.
I am not even accepting. There is nothing to accept. (Except for the blessings of this country's "socialist" health system. I accept them gratefully and with a continuous sense of wonder and entitlement.)
In conclusion: Shit happened, I am dealing with it. Some days better, other days, not too well.
Mostly, I am juggling between distraction and panic, occasionally I glimpse enlightenment.
I love my life too much to whine - generally speaking.
Theoretically, we are all good here, while in reality, uuugh. Tedious.