What the heck... Here I am weeks, no, months later and smack in the middle of one of these scenarios I never thought could happen to plain old me. Seriously ill, heavy medication, potentially debilitating, all the drama of a bad opera and I am the diva. Out of the blue, no, not really: out of a long time lingering underlying malaise, the autoimmune disorder, one catch phrase of 21st century medicine. Getting my head around it is quite a job. Panic, shakes, sleepless nights and the little bitsy hope that it's a joke or at least it's a mild case. yes, that's it, a mild case. Lucky me, found out in time before serious organ damage, irreperable damage set in. Lucky, I hope hope hope.