This morning I happened to see a snippet of a clip of this most awful concert with a totally doped/drunk - whatever - Amy Winehouse. And suddenly this big heavy wave of fear, panic, loss washed over me and I got up and rushed outside and walked up and down in the rainy garden for a bit until it got better. But the thought remained: Is there nobody who loves and cares for this woman to not let shit like this happen?

Amy Winehouse means nothing to me. So what was going on? I have been chewing on this all day. Weird.