I have a tooth ache and I am fighting panic. It's probably nothing but I am so very scared. I am 56 years old, I have done quite a lot of amazing things on three continents for the last 35 years and I act like a frightened child. Oh how I wish someone would come and tell me that all will be well, very soon. But when you are 56 years old, you are supposed to cope in these situations or at least not act like a child. You can listen to the regular breathing of the man asleep next to you. You can watch the cat watching you, only she is blind and just stares into space for a while. The moon so stunning earlier tonight is hidden behind a hazy fog.
I will feel like a right fool in the morning, I know.
Earlier this week I hurt my back doing a simple exercise to strengthen my back muscles. Something I have been doing for years, the exercise I mean. My first back ache in 19 years but we recognised each other like old friends. It is actually hilarious, my GP laughed when I explained how it happened and sent me on to physiotherapy.
That time, 19 years ago after the car crash when I had spine surgery. Nothing compared to having a tooth ache.
7 comments:
I understand. Completely. Do you have any Xanex or Ativan? Shot of vodka? Benadryl? Yes. All will be well. No, knowing that doesn't help but I swear to you it will be.
I hope all will be well, very soon! Nice music pick!!
Sending love and encouragement to you and that frightened child who needs to hear that all will be well, very soon.
Do hope you've now taken that tooth to the dentist, and know for yourself that all will be well. (In time - if you've an abscess it will take over the world for a while).
Yes, the ache will pass but being scared of what's next can not pass because you have no power over it. Only you know into which hands you want to confidently put it.
Thank you. Dentist tomorrow. For now, I have been following our standard approach: When in doubt, make apple crumble. Although, I replaced apples with apricots and overripe peaches.
Sending you good vibes from across the Atlantic! My friend just asked me for an apple-martini recipe for her mother, so I'm working on the proportions now.
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